A New Blog for a New Beginning!!

Warning:  This blog in its entirety will consist of future rantings, writings, knowledge, reviews, and whatever the EFF is on my mind at the time..

     So, I had this idea a while back, as I was doing my internship at a recovery facility and I was looking through the piles of movies on addiction, recovery, and the like.  There were so many I had not seen so I wanted to challenge myself to watch some of these titles and blog about it.  The ones I have seen, perhaps I may re-watch them just for barrels of monkeys fun.  Who knows.

     While I would not wish any sorts of true empathy and understanding on anyone that I love and for them to truly understand the pain and hardships of addiction, I would only wish them a small window into the knowledge of the beast; as I pray that people remember that we are all only human and just because some wander down the depths of different paths, does not mean that they are wrong for doing so.  Everyone has their journeys that HP (higher power/God/Goddess) lays before him/her and while it is not always the journey within itself, but yet the manner in which one carries himself or herself.  This shows and builds character...and true character will always shine through the grey clouds eventually..just like the sun.

If there is one thing...one message I would like to be known:
Anyone that makes it out of the depths of addiction alive is NOT the same person that they were...

Well, for me...I will only talk about me (cuz that's how we do)...I died.  I lost myself long ago...perhaps somewhere in the back alleys, abandominiums, 8x8, or any of the other places I shouldn't have been.  I decided before too long that I would became the phoenix of my existence and rise up through my verve and vivacity.  I would no longer keep doing the things I have always done because I didn't want to keep getting the things that I had always gotten.  So I mourned and buried my past. 

     And even though I still quite often get mistaken for that chick that died...I press on...because just as I do not listen to people's words...I don't expect them to listen to mine.  I look for people's actions.  This is what ONE is known for.  Someone can speak all day 'til blue in the face but until I see it with my own eyes, I will not believe anything.  Just as I do not expect anyone to simply believe the phoenix of Lily that has risen.  Watch me as I conquer the world...
I feel that I have done more than what most would have done in my blue patent stilettos...and this is exactly the case I pleaded to the last Judge, of whom I stood in front..and he didn't have to listen to me...he could see all of this on B&W...(read the 'About Me' section to know what he now knows) and this is why I am so liberated today.  For the first time in almost ten years I have nothing hanging over my head...and I have nothing but gratitude.

Feel free to hit me up with comments, questions, debates, suggestions, etc.
much love to everyone!